Encounter With a Blonde

by Susanne Schuster

With comments by Katharina Wilson

Susanne is 24 years old and is a mother, a housewife, and a vegetarian who loves animals and nature. She has also worked for a number of years as a dental assistant. Susanne has had experiences with non-human beings since she was four years old. Like many abductees, she has also suffered from unexplainable health problems from an early age including severe headaches, abdominal pain, inexplicable infections behind her eardrums and unexplainable nose bleeds.

Susanne has given me permission to publish the following information taken from her recent correspondence with me. I believe you will find her information fascinating.

"When I was 13 years old I began contemplating the meaning of life and I became preoccupied with environmental pollution. I also felt as if I was here for a specific reason, but I could not remember what it was. I met my husband when I was 19 and we married when I was twenty-one. Two years later we had a baby girl."

Sometime in the Fall of 1995, I watched a television program about extraterrestrials. The guest on the program was Dr. John Mack, author of Abduction. I immediately knew what they were talking about on the program and I thought, "That's it!" A few days later I purchased his book, but after reading just a few pages I put it down. I was too afraid to read any more of the book and for weeks it lay in the cupboard. I still haven't read the personal accounts of the experiencers he wrote about in Abduction.

Shortly thereafter, I had a 'dream.' I say 'dream,' but it really felt like a real experience. Afterward, I was very fearful, but I could not tell my husband. For him, extraterrestrial beings have no place in reality. It seemed like I knew that the beings were here and I didn't have to read about them in a book to know this. In addition, some of these reality-based 'dreams' were actually 'teaching-dreams.' I then found out about a German abduction researcher and author named Dr. Fiebag and obtained his phone number. Since my work with Dr. Fiebag has already been covered, I will not repeat it here. At this point, I would like to share a frightening experience that occurred to me in December of 1995. I call this a 'reality-dream:'

"I'm standing on a balcony. To my left and behind me is another person and we are waiting for something...

A UFO flies toward the balcony - it comes so close that I feel as if I can touch it. It hovers for a few seconds and I stand very still. Then it flies away at a very fast speed. I don't know how, but somehow I knew the UFO was coming.

This other person and myself are going back into my flat... Now it is later in the evening and I find myself out on the balcony again. Suddenly, I find myself in a room and I think my consciousness has left my body. The room is lighted very brightly, but I don't see a light source.

I see a block-like object with a naked woman lying on top of it. She's covered with a white cloth up to her waist. The wall opens up to show a door that wasn't there a minute ago. Now a Blonde 'man' comes through the 'door.' He is hovering or somehow suspended in the air.

My position changes...Before, my consciousness was somehow in this room - but now I'm in the body of this woman who is lying on the block! - I'm inside this other woman! Oh God - I'm afraid. I can feel what she feels inside her body.

The Blonde is floating down toward the block. He's about 1,80 to 1,90 meters tall [a little over six feet]. Now I can feel something under my neck. I - this other woman whose body my consciousness is inside of - is afraid. 'We' are screaming and crying. 'We' are panicked! It's cold and we can't move...

The Blonde speaks to me inside my head. He says I needn't be fearful and that he does not want to hurt me. He is telling me that he has chosen this form so he wouldn't scare me. He says that he normally has a different physical form, but he is taking the form of a Blonde so he will not frighten me.

While he is telling me and the other woman this, he pulls 'us' to him and penetrates 'us.' He was very large...there is something like energy. This is a sexual act.

Because this other woman is feeling this and I'm experiencing what she is experiencing - 'we' are feeling deep hatred toward the Blonde. Now something strange is occurring: something is changing... My consciousness is in her body and I know I can change her hate into love. I see this in the Blonde's eyes. His eyes are big and warm and brown. I think I feel that he is a little fearful as well - I'm receiving this information through some kind of impulse from his eyes into my mind. I know what it means.

They - the extraterrestrials - don't understand how we express love. They don't understand how we feel 'in love' and the emotions that are involved.

I telepathically tell the Blonde, 'I'll show you - I'll show you how we love.'

The Blonde understands. He knows that I am being honest with him. Suddenly I feel a little movement again. I'm trying to show him how we love - our emotions, our feelings... Somehow, my consciousness, the other woman and the Blonde have merged together as one being. I believe we have all been able to learn from each other.

I then went into a deep sleep and I remember nothing else about the Blonde and the other woman. The next morning I awakened feeling very confused. I was experiencing pain in my abdomen and I also had a vaginal discharge. The abdominal pain lasted almost an entire week."

In Susanne's letter, she expressed how difficult it was for her to write her first letter to Dr. Fiebag, and that it was actually the third draft of the letter which she actually mailed. Her first two were thrown away out of fear. Susanne has also expressed how difficult it is for her to accept that she is having these experiences with non-human beings. I believe anyone who reads her words can certainly empathize with how Susanne feels.

Susanne also relayed to me that only a handful of people in her support group have had experiences with these Blonde beings and that until she read The Alien Jigsaw, she had not heard of anyone else having a sexual experience with one of the Blonde beings. When Susanne got my book she looked at the illustration of the Blonde I had drawn. Her reaction follows:

"I looked at him...looked away...looked at him... I got goose-bumps and I felt terribly sick in my stomach. I couldn't understand how a picture could wake such emotions in me. After I read the name of the type of being under his picture, I knew why."

I agree with Susanne's belief that the Blonde beings manifest themselves in a physical form only when it is required to accomplish a particular objective. Susanne adds, "He can transform himself. He was like material and energy, and he showed feelings and emotions. The ETs study us - that's true."

In our continued correspondence I asked Susanne to elaborate on the purpose of the Blonde using both her and the other woman in such a manner. After all, in many cultures here on Earth, his actions would be considered 'rape.' Susanne responded by writing:

"I think the Blonde knows that we all react differently, but he also wanted to know if I could influence this other woman. I think he wants to use me to teach this other woman-abductee not to fear him." Susanne continues, "Yes, in our (human) culture we call it 'rape.' But what can we do to tell them that such things are not allowed in our culture? We can only try to tell them if we are able to in the moment."

Susanne's experiences are similar to some of my own that I documented in The Alien Jigsaw. In September of 1989, a Blonde being used himself and me to teach a group of Greys about our concept of the soul and our belief in the eternal life of the soul. In April of 1990, the Blonde somehow placed my consciousness in the body of another young woman. I then experienced all of the emotions she was experiencing. When it was all over, I found myself back in my own body with the Blonde observing how I processed all of the emotions - emotions that I had never experienced before that moment.

An important and disturbing question must be asked at this time. Was it only Susanne's consciousness that experienced this interaction with the Blonde, or was this 'other' woman really Susanne herself? If it were only Susanne's consciousness that experienced this sexual act, why then, did she experience abdominal pain for almost an entire week after the encounter? The physical aftereffects lead me to suspect that at the very least, 'something' physical was done to Susanne's body and that more than her consciousness was involved in this experience. Was the separation of Susanne's consciousness from her physical body necessary in order for the Blonde to carry out the sexual act? Did he believe by doing this, the Blonde could put Susanne in the role of a participant rather than a victim?

These may be questions that cannot be answered, but they are important to consider. They demonstrate the highly manipulative behavior and abilities of certain alien beings. We must understand why some alien beings believe this manipulation is necessary as opposed to being honest with us and asking our permission to partake in these 'experiments.'

Like many other abductees, Susanne is also having 'teaching dreams' and what she calls 'warning dreams' or perhaps visions. I am optimistic that in the future, Susanne will share some of her other types of abduction experiences with us on The Alien Jigsaw Web site.

by Susanne Schuster, ©1997, (Edited by Katharina Wilson)