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should have known something wasn't quite right. I was six years old
and it always began with my sensing a presence in my room, being terrified,
and then drifting off to sleep.
I would find myself floating, and I could see pod-shaped
objects moving in the same direction that I was moving.
Often I would scream, but there would be no sound to my
voice. Then I would feel that all-powerful voice inside my
head-God's voice. It would paralyze me while it told me a
very important message-a message, unfortunately, that I was
not allowed to remember.
As a six year old child, I could not understand why God
would speak to me and never let me remember what he said. It
seemed as if the message was bypassing my conscious mind and
was being placed directly into my unconscious mind.
Today, I know this was not God speaking to me, but
rather, extraterrestrial Beings. Since my childhood I knew I
was here for a reason, and I knew it was more important than
having a family, a career, wealth, or fame. My life was to
involve interaction with alien Beings for a specific
purpose. When I look back on this time period, I believe
there was a part of me that always knew about them.
I have contemplated how this "knowing" could have been
pushed so deep into my unconscious mind for so many years. I
believe it is a combination of two important factors: the
Beings knew that I needed some sense of normality in my
young life for proper psychological development, and my
physiology had not yet reached the stage where my body could
provide the Beings with the genetic material they apparently
require.
Regardless of how these events were suppressed by the
Beings, throughout my childhood and adolescence I continued
to experience unusual phenomena, such as missing time and
the unexplained appearance of unusual scars.
Late one night when I was sixteen years old, the Beings
decided it was time for me to see them and remember them. I
had a sighting of three silver, hamburger-shaped craft that
had yellow, red, and blue lights moving around their
midsections. After the sighting, I felt a strong feeling of
"confirmation" and "familiarity." They also had a reason for
showing themselves to me: it was a type of Awakening.
 I
told others about my sighting only to be ridiculed and looked upon
with pity. Any positive Awakening was all but erased, and this
time, I pushed the memory back into the recesses of my unconscious
mind.
The Beings' visitations continued for many years,
sometimes with bitter consequences. I spent many years of my
life training to become a professional musician, but after
an experience involving a bright light in my bedroom one
night, I could no longer play my musical instruments. This
encounter destroyed my will and my desire to play music. My
life was being re-directed, perhaps even manipulated, but I
kept pushing forward. I kept trying to go in the direction I
wanted, but every now and then someone, or something,
would nudge me in a different direction.
My breaking point came when I was twenty-six years old. I
began walking around in my backyard at night looking for
aliens. I knew the Beings were a part of my life, but I also
knew that society believed otherwise.
I spent the next two years pursuing a difficult and
personal investigation. I believe my greatest progress was
made after I decided that I wasn't going to be a victim
anymore. This was one of the most important decisions I have
ever made in my life. Yes, I was being abducted by aliens,
but I didn't have to feel like a helpless victim and allow
the "fear of the unknown" to take over my life.
I continued to keep my journal that I began in 1983. Over
the years, I found that writing down my dreams and unusual
memories was very therapeutic. I was also able to document
many details from my abduction experiences that I did not
know would be important to my future. So important, in fact,
that one of them would save my life.
A 'Vision' of my Future
 In
1989, I was studying psychology with hopes of obtaining my Ph.D. That
year, during another abduction experience, a Being whom I call The
Blonde showed me a glimpse of my future. It involved my hearing a
loud explosion and seeing our courtyard wall being repaired.
Eight months later, I was on my way outside to open our
over-head garage door for my husband. It was storming, and I
did not want him to get wet opening the manual door. The
entrance to the garage was through the courtyard. I put on
my wooden clogs because it was raining intensely. However,
just before I went outside, I told myself, "You're going to
get struck by lightning if you don't put on rubber soled
shoes." Laughing to myself while I changed shoes I said,
"Yeah, right."
On my way back from the garage to my front door I heard a
loud explosion. The next thing I knew, I felt myself
floating up the six steps that led to our front door. I
thought I was going to die. I got myself inside my house,
and a few seconds later realized that it was not a bomb that
had exploded. Our courtyard wall had been hit by lightning
and I was only eight feet away when it struck. The lightning
caused several thousand dollars worth of damage to our
courtyard.
That night I was visited by two Greys who performed an
operation on my heart. During the operation I asked them
what they were doing, and one of them replied
telepathically, "We are repairing your heart-you will be
okay now."
I believe The Blonde saved my life by showing me a
glimpse of my future. One of the many things I learned by
keeping a journal and documenting everything I remembered
is, the more personal the information the Beings give me
about my future, the more likely it is to occur.
Different Types of Greys
I also learned that it is not wise to stereotype the
Beings simply because of how they look. Not all Greys are
the same, and I devote a section of my book, The Alien
Jigsaw to describing the characteristics of four
different types of Greys, as well as ten other categories of
Beings who have interacted with me.
The Type One Greys are about three feet tall, have old
looking skin and large black eyes. These Beings are able to
float or levitate themselves as a means of locomotion. The
Type Two Greys are about four feet tall and are the Greys
that some people refer to as robots. Because I have observed
emotions such as puzzlement and even pride, I do not
perceive them as robots. These are the types of Greys that
performed the heart operation on me. The Type Three Greys
are about six feet tall and have long blonde-yellow hair. (I
believe their hair is artificial.) They refer to themselves
as "Navigators" of the cigar-shaped crafts. We would
interpret their role as that of a pilot. The fourth type of
Grey I have encountered is about seven feet tall. They have
very large heads and very round black eyes. They appear to
hold important positions, for example, a leader or diplomat.
Why Are They Here?
I am often asked, "Why are the Beings here, and what are
they doing?" My experiences and my research tell me that the
aliens are conducting a longitudinal study of humans. In the
field of psychology, a longitudinal study evaluates a group
of subjects at several points in time, over a number of
years, or even decades as may be the case with the aliens. I
believe the aliens are assessing how our behaviors and
characteristics are changing over the course of evolution.
Some aliens appear to be carrying out a massive breeding
program involving humans and aliens (the alien-human
hybridization project), and some are also monitoring our
environment.
Psychological Study
My psychology has been studied using theatrical concepts
that involve interactions with aliens that are indeed of a
theatrical nature: play acting, or teasing and joking, for
example. Other psychological aspects have been studied using
what I call "teaching dreams." These are not dreams, but
instead are situations that are created and executed within
the context of an abduction and involve provoking intense
emotional responses and cognitive processes.
 The
Beings are also curious about my ability to feel empathy for other
species of animals. In the past, they have often used real animals,
and themselves camouflaged as animals, to study my thoughts and beliefs
about vegetarianism and animals' rights. They occasionally use animals
to manipulate me. For example, if I perform the aliens' desired behavior,
an animal will not be harmed. It is possible that the aliens are able
to tune into one another, while simultaneously tuning in to the abductee
during these teaching/learning situations.
Physiological Study
The Beings have also used my reproductive organs to
obtain genetic material in order to create life. I often see
children who range from being human, to hybrid, to
completely alien. I have also seen children who were created
from a part of me, and two of them recognized me as their
mother. In most cases I feel positive or loving feelings for
the children. One very positive experience involved a
tan-skinned infant. It was a healthy baby and as I was
carrying it, it was squirming around in its little basket. I
offered it my pinkie finger and when it began to suckle on
it, the infant calmed down.
Experimentation
Another aspect of their physiological study involves
performing experiments on me. Many of the procedures the
Beings have performed on me that are of an experimental
nature are well documented in The Alien Jigsaw.
Knowledge of the Future
The Beings appear to be knowledgeable about specific
future events in my life. For example, they knew I would
make a three thousand mile move from the Gulf Coast to
the Northwest, before my husband and I knew we would.
Most importantly, they also knew I would write my book.
During the first nine years I kept a journal, it never
crossed my mind that I would let anyone read my journal,
much less publish it one day. It wasn't until 1992 that I
realized this was going to change. I believe my life has
been directed in such a manner that I would be where I
needed to be in order to publish my journal and share my
information with others.
I have learned a lot from my experiences with non-human
Beings. I chose not to view myself as a victim. Instead, I
decided to learn as much from the Beings as they were
apparently learning from me. Incidentally, the Beings are
not the only ones learning from me. I have also seen
military and government personnel in some of my encounters.
Some of my illustrations of unusual craft that I saw on what
appeared to be military bases have also been published in my
book.
It is my hope that by sharing my experiences, other
abductees will know that they are not alone in experiencing
such phenomena as teaching dreams, visions, theatrics,
camouflage, screen memories, and even experiences involving
military or government personnel. I also realize that by
publishing my entire journal, certain types of information
about abductions has been made public for the first time.
I believe we are all involved in this phenomenon for a
reason. Those individuals with conscious memories of their
experiences, and with the ability to share their information
with others should be encouraged to do so. However, I
strongly urge you to remain honest and true to your own
experiences. This phenomenon needs no hype or exaggeration.
The simple truth is enough to challenge everyone's reality.
 A condensed version of this article, titled Reality
Challenged was published in 1994, in Connecting
Link, Issue #25. Connecting Link magazine: 9392 Whitneyville SE, Alto, MI, 49302.
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