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2012 Updated note to the reader "The idea of a Supreme Being who creates a world in which one creature is designed to eat another in order to subsist, and then passes a law saying, 'Thou shalt not kill,' is so monstrously, immeasurably, bottomlessly absurd that I am at a loss to understand how mankind has entertained or given it a house room all this long." - Peter De Vries The original article begins here: It is difficult to be succinct when discussing the topic of alien abductions or religion, but to bring the two subjects together in the same article is quite a task, not to mention controversial. The reason I am writing this is because I am often asked how my beliefs have changed since I began my investigation into the abduction phenomenon ten years ago in 1987. This article is my attempt to answer a question I have put off answering for quite some time. Background I was Confirmed at the age of 13 in the Lutheran church. I went to church every Sunday until I was eighteen years old. I don't remember ever leaving church feeling good about myself or life in general. I always felt worse, rather than better; I was made to feel guilty rather than hopeful and uplifted. I never understood that, but I knew I didn't like it. When I was about 21, I began attending a Fundamentalist Christian church when an event involving a yellow light occurred. [1] After some rather bizarre conversations about whether this light was from God or Satan, and after learning about some of the people I was involved with, I realized these people were dangerous. As I look back on that time, with their attempts at trying to get me to quit college my senior year and to disown my family and friends, I realize this church was more of a cult than a house of worship and enlightenment. The next time I set foot in a church was when I married Mark, my first husband. The wedding was rather strange. We had to have a Lutheran minister and a Catholic priest marry us, and I had to promise that our children would be raised as Catholics. It is fortunate we did not have children because that marriage ended in divorce. It was actually just after meeting Erik (my present husband) and his introducing me to some study books about Edgar Cayce's teachings, that I began to have any sort of idea about Spirituality and a connection to God. I never joined a "Cayce group" or got caught up in it, but from that time forward, I slowly began to develop an understanding of God. Ironically, this was also the time my experiences began
to occur more frequently. I was retaining conscious memories
of what I would later learn were alien abductions. In 1987,
I read my first book about UFOs and the abduction
phenomenon, and the rest is history. It seemed I finally had
an explanation for my strange memories - my 'unusual'
life. Present In 1996, I came to the conclusion that the aliens have taken much more from me than they have given. This realization began chipping away at my neutral feelings toward the aliens. I cannot speak for all of the beings who have interacted with humans, but some of these aliens have forced me and many other people to exist in a perpetual state of duress. Their interaction with us has ruined our marriages and careers; has caused health problems and, according to some researchers, even terminal illnesses. [2-3] Relating this to the subject of our discussion, living under such extreme pressures has forced me to look at my inner strengths for survival. When my inner strength is exhausted, I am forced to reach out to that which created me: God. I am slowly gaining strength from God. I believe God is
real and that God cares. However, I also understand that the
decisions I make have a strong effect on the direction my
life takes. Stopping Abductions During a recent correspondence with hypnotherapist and abduction researcher Dona Higbee, we were discussing the subject of stopping abductions. She wrote about this subject in her article, What Would You Do? [4 a-b] The suggestions she provided were familiar to me. I had tried the "mental struggle," "righteous anger," and "protective rage," and although it took about a year for these to work for me, I think they helped. I do not believe these techniques will work if there is even one molecule in your body that still wants to participate - even if it is for the learning experience or for curiosity's sake. Unless every (proverbial) fiber in your body believes you really want them out of your life, they will know it and they will come back. Today, when I think I may be curious about them, I concentrate on God (or the Creative Force) and I say, "If I need answers - or if I need truth about this phenomenon, it will come from God - not aliens." It's a way to remind myself and the aliens, that I am aware of the enormous manipulative abilities they have. The fact that I haven't seen any of the frail greys with the wrap-around eyes in over a year, may be indicative that at some level, they have heard my mental pleas... [2012 Update: This, in the end, did not work for me. I continued to have experiences involving Greys and still do as of 2012.] Unfortunately, I continue to have experiences during which I see hybrid type beings and - of all things - military personnel. In addition to these two groups, I continue to have benign experiences with beings I call Super Conscious Beings, or SCBs. Most people knowledgeable about this subject know that
hybrid beings and sometimes military personnel or other
official-looking personnel are reported during abduction
experiences, so I will not go into detail about them. [5
a-b] The SCBs may need some explaining, however. Super Conscious Beings
In my article Curious Correlations I gave an example of a vision during which a 'wise one' or a 'guide' showed me a war that would occur between Russia, China, and the United States at some point in our future. The being who was with me is what I call a Super Conscious Being. [6] During another unusual experience, I felt about the size of a canary compared to the two human faces peering down at me. It was a male and a female with white skin and black hair. At the time, I felt as if they manifested themselves to appear human for my benefit, but they were enormous. All I saw were their faces, as they smiled down at me and questioned me about my health. While I was talking to them their faces showed extreme delight when I told them I was a vegetarian and was healthy. Another example of my being visited by these SCBs occurred as recent as this year. I was visited by three of these beings, two weeks before my beloved 18 year old cat passed away. The excerpt from my journal follows:
There have been a few other experiences with these beings and they have always been benign, either showing me a vision or interacting with me directly. The feel and 'flavor' of an experience with these SCBs, as I call them, is different from an experience with a grey, or a tan, or a hybrid. The feel is also much different than my experiences during which I see military personnel. It is difficult to describe what the Super Conscious Beings look like because they take on a human form that is
best suited to the purpose of their visit. For example, when
they show me a vision, I only see them in my peripheral
vision. When they interact with me in a way that requires me
to see them, they take on the form of a non-threatening
human. For me, an elderly person is a good choice because I
view most elderly people as more experienced than myself and
deserving of respect. The only way I can describe the Super Conscious
Beings is to describe the emotions that flow from
them: care, concern, love, wisdom, and peacefulness. If they
had long flowing gowns and wings, I would call them God's
angels - however, I know they are not angels. The Ultimate Manipulation There are many people who cannot allow themselves to think of the aliens as anything but positive and 'here to help us.' I wonder if these people have only had experiences with the Super Conscious Beings? I have had difficulty believing this regarding the aliens because of a lifetime of experiences with them. I have also refrained from calling them negative or evil, until very recently during times when I am in pain because of the lingering effects of their interaction with me. When I talk about aliens, I am speaking of the greys, the tans, and the hybrids who have sometimes performed painful psychological and physiological experiments on me. I am now wondering what to think about these other beings who are visiting me from time to time. Who are these Super Conscious Beings? I want to believe they are who I think they are. However, with what I know about the aliens' use of camouflage, screen memories and mind control, as well as our government's use of mind control on unwitting Americans [8] I wonder if it is safe to believe these Super Conscious Beings are what they appear to be. Nevertheless, they are here and I know I am not the only human they are interacting with. Only time will tell, after we accumulate more information about them, what their true intentions are. It is sad that the more knowledge we gain about these different beings, the more questions we are left with. I fear sometimes that some of us will not be able to continue the mental, physical, and spiritual struggle this phenomenon requires of us. In the end, I fear some of us will be lost - left with nothing to believe in. The thing that keeps me going is spirituality. I didn't get it from the Lutheran church or the Baptist church. It grew within me, probably because of my life experiences. God has been gracious to me: I have a wonderful husband and family, and although I experience pain from time to time, I have a healthy body. I also have friends who pray for me and I believe in the powerful and positive benefits of prayer. My involvement with certain beings has taken me into the spiritual realm and what I believe to be other dimensions. Unlike a lot of people on our planet, I know these realms exist. Spirituality is what is important, not so much religion. It is ironic that organized religion - what millions of people depend on throughout their lives - has become similar to the way the aliens behave. They seem to use a level of manipulation to obtain their desired results. Some churches instill fear and guilt to obtain your money; some religions teach that war and suicide bombings will save your soul; while some aliens instill fear and pain to obtain your will. On the positive side, that leaves some good churches, some good religions, and some good aliens.
Updated 2012 Jesus, Allah, God, Buddha… No one can keep the aliens from abducting you if they want you. If certain abductees think their experiences have stopped, it's only because (1) the abductee is no longer needed (2) the aliens are not allowing the abductee to remember (3) the abductee is suppressing their memories (4) their memories have been completely wiped by the aliens, or (5) the abductee is repressing their encounters. When some abductees reach a certain age - usually post-menopausal - and they were only being used in a biological sense, then they will logically not have anymore abductions; but, that is not the case with all abductees. Some are having their bodies mined for specific genes other than what sperm and ova have to offer the aliens and this results in lifelong abductions. Some abductees are being abducted for their own technical knowledge and what it has to offer the aliens during the course of abducting other humans. Some abductees are being trained for, as yet, unknown future tasks, and some are being used and forced to help abduct other humans. [1] Kay Wilson, The Alien Jigsaw (Puzzle Publishing, 1993) 33-36 [2] Please refer to my article about Fibromyalgia on this web site. In addition, much has been published about PTSD, post traumatic stress disorder and Vietnam Veterans, as well as the disorder showing up in people claiming to be alien abductees. I published my diagnosis with PTSD in The Alien Jigsaw and Puzzle Pieces: How Do I Make It From Here...To There? Abductees such as Ed Walters and Jim Sparks have also published information relating to PTSD in their books; and researchers John E. Mack, M.D., John S. Carpenter, M.S.W., and Budd Hopkins have also published information about how the abductees or experiencers they have worked with have exhibited symptoms and/or have been medically diagnosed with PTSD. [3] Personal correspondence with Karla Turner, Ph.D., regarding: (1) a male abductee who died under mysterious circumstances in 1994, whom she believed was killed by aliens; (2) Dr. Turner's personal battle with cancer. She relayed to me that her cancer occurred very suddenly (after an abduction) and she believed it occurred because of that particular abduction experience. [4] (a) Donna Higbee's article What Would You Do? is published on her Web site. M (b) Ann Druffel presented a paper to the M.I.T. Abduction Conference in June, 1992, titled "Resistance Techniques Against UFO Abduction As Reported By Credible Witnesses." In her paper Ms. Druffel discussed the techniques that Donna referenced in her article. Update 2012: I want to stress that these techniques do not work. [5] (a) Hybrid beings have been reported by abductees since at least 1987. I have several illustrations of hybrid beings in my book The Alien Jigsaw. There are also references to hybrids throughout the UFO abduction literature that are too numerous to list here. (b) I cover much in-depth information regarding military personnel being seen during abductions in Project Open Mind as well as Helmut_Lammer, Ph.D. in his article, Project MILAB. Both are located on this web site. [6] Kay Wilson, Curious Correlations. [7] Kay Wilson, Personal journals, 1997. [8] Kay Wilson, Project Open Mind, 1996. By Kay Wilson ©1997 |
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I am with two females. It's the beings again. These are not aliens
- they are the super conscious beings. They are females and
now they have taken the form of a golden wooden cross. It looks
like real wood, but it is gold. It is real and alive - sentient.
The wood is alive. It has consciousness! It is so beautiful.
These Super Conscious Beings are from the living consciousness.
They can manifest into anything. They are using the God-energy;
the creative force. Thoughts are things.
