Part Five
ESB Successes
In Part Two of Project
Open Mind we learned about some of the successes
scientists have had with ESB, electronic stimulation of the
brain. Some of these are:
- The acceleration, slowing down or stopping of the
heart
- Inhibition of the maternal instinct
- Adjusting the diameter of the pupil at will
- Helping stroke victims recover from paralysis
- Forcing people to talk, to be silent, to become
friendly, and to become erotically aroused
- Inducing pleasure, orgasm and pain
- Blocking an individual's thinking processes
- Summoning memories and creating hallucinations
- Dramatically altering an individual's behavior
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I also related that I have experienced some of the ESB "successes"
listed above, during what I believe were alien abduction experiences,
as well as experiences during which I saw military personnel. I will
now provide examples of the similarities I provided in
Part
Two. [Note: All abduction-related memories covered in this
project were remembered consciously and were not retrieved or "recovered"
by the use of hypnosis.]
I Have Had Old Memories Summoned
In June of 1990, I had an encounter during which I was
standing in my dining room next to the table. A short, pudgy
little doctor who was wearing green scrubs, inserted two
small metal posts into my mouth. It felt as though the posts
had penetrated the top of my mouth back behind my teeth and
it was very painful. I could feel pain and pressure at both
of my temples when suddenly, I felt as if the devices had
penetrated my brain.
I became very emotional and began to relive old memories.
It was as if the events I had experienced in the past were
occurring right at that moment. I was standing in my living
room, but I was also in my psychology class. Then suddenly,
I was performing with an orchestra at the University I
attended. I was playing my clarinet and was in the middle of
a concert, but I was still standing in my living room and I
was aware that two events were occurring simultaneously. The
short humanoid doctor was stimulating the memory pathways of
my brain.
After I was convinced that one of the devices was stuck
in my brain, I found myself in a hospital and was
experiencing so much pain that I passed out on the floor. At
the time, I believed I was on board an alien craft, but the
inside of this structure looked like a hospital.
I regained consciousness after I heard a child's voice
say, "A dead human?" in reference to me lying on the floor.
I looked up and saw a mother and child standing next to
me and I got up off of the floor. I then entered a huge room
through double doors where I saw a lot of people lying on
tables. Each person was surrounded by a team of doctors. I
passed one table upon which a large black woman was lying.
She was struggling to get up and one of the alien "doctors"
took a wand and touched it to her. It appeared to send a
jolt of electricity through her because the poor woman fell
backward, and down onto the table again and passed out.
After this experience I awakened in my bed "feeling
extremely dizzy" and as if "I had been drugged." I had a
headache, a very sore jaw and was running a slight
temperature. When I looked in the bathroom mirror I could
not find any physical evidence that the device had been in
my mouth. There was no blood, puncture marks or bruising
behind my teeth, on my gums or on the roof of my mouth. [1]
My Behavior Has Been Dramatically Altered Immediately
After An Abduction Experience
After seeing a bright yellow light in my room one night
that made me terrified in the extreme I wrote, "Ever since
the bright light appeared in my room shortly after returning
home from college in 1981, and scared the hell out of me, I
was unable to go near any of my musical instruments. I knew
I could not play anymore...I knew I could not be a
musician."
After this encounter with the bright yellow light, I lost
my musical ability, something that I had worked very hard
for, for many years. [2]
The following paragraph was written by me after an
intense experience that did not involve my remembering
aliens, but rather, a man from the CIA. The man said he was
a real estate broker and that he wanted me to come to work
for him. An unusual event occurred the day after this
encounter.
"The following day, and for the first time in my life, I
was expecting a visit from someone in a government agency.
Then it suddenly occurred to me that maybe I had already
been visited by them...The following afternoon when I was
checking my messages I was astonished. I had received a
message from a man who...explained that he was a broker with
a nationally known real estate company and he wanted me to
come to work for him...Strangely, I found myself compelled
to call him back and take him up on the offer. I wrote his
number down and then stared at my phone. I thought, 'Am I
supposed to work for the government?' " [3] Rather than
returning the call to take him up on his offer, I
immediately got out of the real estate business.
I have also suddenly changed my diet after certain
experiences. After one such encounter with a Being I call
The Blonde, I stopped eating fish. After another experience
with the Greys, I couldn't leave my house for two days.
After another experience in 1995, which I will cover in
detail later, I wrote:
"What is also difficult about the aftermath of this
experience is that I feel as if I should get out of the
phenomenon, stop what I'm doing: the publishing, writing,
research...I want to move. I want to disappear. I also think
I'll get my hair cut..." [4]
Finally, after another encounter that occurred in 1996,
which again did not involve alien Beings but rather military
personnel, I wrote:
"My entire mind-set has changed. Whatever is going to
happen or whatever is happening in this 'place' - it's big.
There's nothing more important than this. All I know is, I'm
not the person I used to be. I'm a soldier now and my own
needs don't matter anymore." [5]
It is my opinion that whatever is happening to me, some
of these experiences have dramatically altered my behavior
and thinking processes after they occurred. I have been
forced to give up a promising career in music and a career
in real estate. "Someone" has attempted to coerce me into
not writing and publishing about the alien abduction
phenomenon, and now I'm supposed to view myself as a
soldier of all things. I believe these are dramatic
examples of behavior modification. The question is: Is this
behavior modification being done by alien Beings, mind
control agents, or both?
I Have Felt Love For Alien Beings Who Have Experimented
On Me
A quick check in my index for The Alien Jigsaw
lists no less than thirty references under the word "love."
A thorough review shows that the majority of my references
of the word "love" relate to my husband, to animals, and to
hybrid babies and children. The following quotes relate to
the love I feel for certain alien Beings. The quotes are
numbered to show that they are from separate experiences.
1) "It was not the first time I had felt extremely
positive feelings for The Blonde, but this visitation made
it more than obvious to me that we both had strong feelings
for one another. I felt love from him..." I also felt love
for him. [6]
2) "I'm standing out on our deck with Erik [my husband]
and The Blonde. The automatic flood lights didn't come on as
they were supposed to. I'm hugging Erik. I love him and
hugging him makes me feel warm and loved...I'm turning
toward The Blonde...Now I'm hugging The Blonde. I have very
special feelings for him and I feel love when I hold him."
This hugging between Erik and myself and The Blonde and myself continued
until I hugged The Blonde again and something changed: "...the
feelings I had a minute ago have suddenly been multiplied ten times.
The love and warmth I am feeling are much, much stronger than they
were a few minutes ago." [7]
It seems that instantaneously, The Blonde was somehow
able to manipulate the loving feelings I had for Erik and
transfer them from himself and back to me. This created the
(very convincing) illusion that The Blonde and I experienced
a much stronger "love" for one another than Erik and I felt
for one another. Even understanding that this manipulation
has occurred, it is still difficult for me to believe that
The Blonde does not love me and care a great deal for me.
3) During yet another experience I wrote, "I feel a great
amount of love for The Blonde and I know he loves me." [8]
4) "I'm looking into the eyes of the Reptilian Tan again.
We are still face to face and I am looking up at him. I
sense that he and the Tan Being are very nice. They are very
benign Beings...I almost feel love for them." [9]
The Blonde and the Tans have performed medical procedures on me ranging
from gynecological-type procedures to putting thin metal rods through
my joints, and injecting me with very long needles. There are also
other Beings who have done similar types of things and I have experienced
feelings of love and what I call "misplaced feelings of devotion"
for them. These include the Greys, the Tan Doctor, and The Doctor,
who is a rather human-looking Hybrid.
I Have Experienced Short-term Memory Problems
Immediately After an Abduction
Short-term memory problems do not occur often to me, but they sometimes
occur after an abduction experience along with several other aftereffects.
An example from my journal in August of 1995 follows. Since I do not
take drugs and I did not get drunk the night before, and I also did
not sleep on a hard surface, I cannot understand how a simple "dream"
could leave me with so many side-effects.
"Sunday morning: Extreme disorientation, extreme
hyper-neuronal activity, but I can't seem to focus on the
task at hand; anger, feelings of violation, vision
(convergence) problems, short-term memory problems, trouble
getting my thoughts focused. My head feels sore, as if my
'brain' hurts. It's really my whole head area, inside and
out. It's just bruised feeling." [10]
In October of 1995, I was in Chicago to speak at a
conference for "National UFO Awareness Week." Immediately
after my plane arrived at the airport I had a missing time
experience in the women's restroom. I was not able to
remember what occurred to me between the missing time
experience and meeting my host at the baggage claim area. In
this example, there are short-term as well as long-term
memory problems. A portion of that experience follows:
"I have no other memories of what occurred in the women's
restroom, and I have no memory of walking from the phones
(outside the women's restroom) to the baggage claim area
until I was about fifteen yards from Mary and Faith. I do
know one thing: a lot of people get off a plane after a four
hour flight, use the restroom, wash their hands, and arrive
at the baggage claim area at about the same time. When I
arrived, no one but Mary, Faith, and the police were to be
seen. I never adjusted my watch during the weekend. I kept
it on Portland time and it worked fine throughout the
weekend. Neither had it malfunctioned prior to that weekend
nor since. It seems that at the very least, I am missing
thirty minutes of time."
Another example of short-term memory problems after an
abduction are beginning a task and seconds after beginning,
forgetting what it was I was doing or why I was doing it. As
I stated earlier, this is not common for me, but it does
occur in relation to abductions.
A disturbing parallel can be drawn when looking at the
effects of certain drugs like "burundanga" or Scopolamine
for example. A man who read my book sent me an article
titled "Drug Effective Weapon of Colombian Muggers"
published in The Greenville News on August, 27, 1994.
Some highlights from this article follow:
"Bogata, Colombia (AP) - Thousands of people have been
robbed or raped in the past two decades after being slipped
the drug scopolamine, known as 'burundanga' on the street,
prompting a U.S. State Department warning to travelers to
Colombia."
" 'The drug renders the person disoriented and powerless
to resist the criminal's orders,' the State Department says
in a travel advisory."
"Criminals often administer the drug, a highly soluble
white powder with no taste or smell, by slipping it into a
drink or blowing it into the face of an unsuspecting
victim."
"Scopolamine has been used in medicine, often as a
sedative, in the United States and other countries for
years...But too much of the drug can cause disorientation,
memory loss, hallucinations and convulsions. In large
quantities, its effects can last for days... 'It's much like
hypnosis, but a chemical version,' said Uribe, whose clinic
treated 364 burundanga victims last year." [11]
The drug's form as a highly soluble white powder brings
to mind an abduction encounter that my husband experienced
in October of 1991. Part of Erik's experience follows:
"I was given a pillow and blanket made of a very
lightweight, translucent and opalescent material. The Being
told me telepathically, 'It is time for you to go to sleep.'
A primal fear set in as I pleaded for him not to do this
again. As I begged, he quickly raised his left hand over my
head and released a metallic powder over my face. I could
taste the bitter substance that fell onto my face and lips
as I drifted away and lost consciousness." [12]
It is clear that the drug this alien used was not
scopolamine since it had a bitter taste and scopolamine has
no taste or smell. A question we should ask is, if these are
advanced aliens who often use telepathy and "touch" to
achieve many of their goals, why would they need to use
drugs? Alien abduction researchers should be very cautious
during their investigations when both aliens and humans are
using the same tools, for example: implants, injections with
syringes, pills, powders, and other drugs.
I Have Experienced an Orgasm Merely by the Touch of an
Alien Being
This type of event has only occurred to me one time that
I can remember. This particular experience surfaced in a
dream in September of 1988:
"A little time has passed and [The Blonde] is back in the
room with me. I feel as though we are being watched by
several Beings from behind a one-way, see through wall. He's
reaching out to me...he has taken my left hand. He's holding
my left hand, gently. Then he reaches out and touches my
left breast and I instantly have an orgasm. I don't remember
the physical act of sexual intercourse...he just touched
me." [13]
After this dream memory, I awakened in the middle of the
night feeling guilty, almost devastated. I suddenly
remembered that the actual encounter had occurred about one
month earlier and I didn't record it in my journal because I
felt as though I had betrayed my husband Erik.
I went a long time believing that I had had sex with The
Blonde until I finally reasoned that I had not. The Blonde
touched me and the orgasm was "instantaneous." That simply
doesn't happen with humans. If people could achieve this by
simply going around touching one another, I would have
surely have heard about it! It seemed to me that if the
aliens are capable of taking people's pain away by a simple
touch, or infusing certain loving emotions and feelings into
the abductee, then what I had experienced was more similar
to some type of brain stimulation than "body" stimulation.
Recall that with the use of electronic stimulation of the
brain, both pain and pleasure, including orgasm, can be
instantaneously achieved. I believe that The Blonde and
possibly other aliens may be using ESB devices to achieve
feelings of pleasure, pain, fear, or what ever emotion they
require. How else could the abductors "inhibit the maternal
instinct" by making parents remain awake in their bed at
night while listening to the pleas of their young children
as they are abducted? When researchers interview some of
these parents and ask how they responded when they heard
their children's pleas, they often say something to the
effect of, "I couldn't move," or "I just went back to
sleep." [14]
We must again acknowledge the fact that human beings have
been using ESB devices for several decades and the
technology has become very advanced. [15] Here is yet
another example of an overlap between what human agents of
mind control and alien Beings might be able to achieve
during their interaction with, or experiments on human
beings.
While these examples do not prove that it is "either"
aliens or humans who are doing the abducting, they
demonstrate a clear overlap in the technology that may be in
use with alien abductions and mind control experiments. Many
occurrences that take place during an alien abduction can be
accomplished with terrestrial technology. [16]
I Have A Steadfast Devotion Toward Specific Military
Personnel I Don't Even Know, But Interact With During My
Encounters
I had an incredible experience in June of 1996. For all
of its vividness, it may as well have happened yesterday. It
may surprise some readers because of the details, the
vividness and the lack of alien Beings. A recurrent theme in
many abductees' experiences, these military type encounters
are extremely perplexing and disturbing.
I hesitate to include all of the encounter for the fact
that I still do not understand it; why it occurred and why I
remembered it. If it is a true memory, then I fear I may be
violating some pre-arranged oath I may have taken. If it is
a ploy by the aliens to deceive us into believing that our
government is abducting us or is going to use us in a future
war, I surely do not want to play into their hands by
spreading their disinformation. I ask you to please keep
these thoughts in mind when reading the following journal
entry.
[I have allowed several more weeks to pass before
deciding to include this entry. I was hoping to remember
more about the event, or even to have some clarification as
to why I remembered it and if I should share it with others.
Unfortunately, neither has occurred.]
"I'm standing in a room. I think I'm in a building
related to science and education... research. I'm looking
out a window and I see an unusual helicopter. It's flying
over the building and away from me. I'm looking at it and it
appears to be a very light weight craft. The tail is
composed of three or four beams of thin metal. The cockpit
is rather small. [This was probably a drone aircraft.]
Now there are at least two squadrons of helicopters
passing over me. These are attack helicopters: hueys,
cobra-type gun-ships, and black-hawks. There are others, but
I can't name them all. I know these are various types of
attack helicopters. There's some kind of mission
occurring...looks like at least twenty-four craft. The next
wave is coming over me. These are various types of
fixed-wing aircraft. There's definitely a large military
exercise occurring. This is big.
Suddenly one of these groups of planes all move
vertically very fast. I'm being told that one group is for
"attack" and the other is for flying...carrying out the
mission. There are two groups that will be needed.
Now I'm in another place. I'm acting as a go-between. I'm
myself, but inside I feel an intensity. A duty. I am a
soldier. I'm the liaison [go-between] between civilians and
a General. The General is a male and he's in his fifties or
early sixties. My entire mind-set changes here. There is
something I am to participate in that requires me to accept
certain things. The chain of command.
There's a large room full of enlisted personnel. It's
somewhat dark in here, and it's noisy because everyone is
talking at once. Everyone is wearing midnight blue uniforms.
I've seen these before. They have no markings, just a
midnight blue color. Jumpsuit-type uniforms. I don't get the
feeling this is any one particular branch like the Air
Force, Army, or Marines. It's all of them and it's none of
them. I'm standing in the doorway to the room and the
General is nearby. I'm actually with the General and we're
in an adjacent room to this crowd of soldiers. Most of them
are males, but some are females. The General is on the
phone.
Now he has just hung up the phone and I walk into the
adjacent room and make some kind of hand signal to the
crowd. They immediately stop talking. The room is silent.
The General and I walk in together. He is going to give us
our orders.
I know that I'm the middle-man, so to speak, between this
large group of soldiers and the command. It's my job and
it's extremely important. It's my life now. I am not the
person I used to be, but I am here because I'm involved. I
think it's because I'm an abductee.
[Later]
I'm bunking with a group of women. Most of them are my
age or younger. Some of them don't belong here. They'll
never make it. We're in a hotel room or a suite. There's a
king size bed and some other furniture. There's about ten of
us in here. We're getting ready to go to sleep. Most of us
are going to sleep on the floor even though there's a bed in
here. I know I'm a soldier now. There's no reason for me to
be comfortable anymore. My life has totally changed. I have
to be ready. Conditioned.
I'm doing my nightly forty sit-ups. I do these all the time...have
to stay in top shape. Things could happen at any moment. I look over
to a blonde female. She's got her pajamas on and she's decided to
sleep in the bed. Hardly anyone in here approves of her decision,
but she's never going to make it anyway. We don't say much to her.
Most of us know that they have to follow my lead if they want to survive.
Somehow, I seem to be their leader or something. I'm in charge of
them and I know that some of these women don't belong here."
[17]
Taken at face value, the implications of this encounter
are disturbing, to say the least. Fortunately, if we have
learned anything in abduction research, it is that you never
take anything at face value.
To say what is really occurring here is nearly impossible. I have
a conscious memory of a non-alien encounter that has the exact same
reality to it that my alien encounters have. It did not seem to be
a vision, although I have to be open to the possibility that perhaps
the visions are changing and I'm misinterpreting the information.
If a vision, I must ask: Where is the vision coming from? God? Aliens?
Agents of mind control? Perhaps even neurochemical changes in the
brain? Could I have been "accidentally" remote viewing this?
Could this have been a way for someone to disseminate
information? Could the aliens know that a conflict is going
to occur in our future? Some abductees believe they are
being used as messengers by the aliens to let the U.S.
government know they are aware of certain plans and
activities or, perhaps the aliens want me to warn other
abductees so they will be mentally prepared when something
does happen.
On the other hand, perhaps this was an example of a virtual reality
scenario by the use of an electronic brain implant. Was this information
"dumped" into my memory for the purposes of my writing about
it and furthering some disinformation campaign? Was it a VRS (virtual
reality scenario) designed to train me for an event without physically
abducting me for the training? That would certainly place this event
into the category of mind control, would it not?
The idea that abductees are going to be recruited by the
military and are going to fight side by side with the
military against the "evil aliens" sounds like a Hollywood
movie script. Nevertheless, I believe that all of the above
questions are valid. Every possibility should be considered
before forming an opinion as to why some abductees are
seeing military and other official looking personnel during
their experiences. There are other abductees who are having
similar experiences as mine, and they sincerely believe that
we are preparing for a future war. If this was merely more
alien psychological testing to see how I would react in a
situation such as this, we should be curious as to why the
aliens are interested in this information.
There are no easy explanations for encounters or memories
like the example I just provided. It may be easy for some
people to say this was just an extraordinary dream brought
on by unusual chemical changes in the brain. But once again,
when we look at the data covering multiple abductions, and
the similarities between the reports of abductees across
large geographical distances, I do not believe we can safely
assume this to be the case.
There are other examples of my devotion to military personnel, as
well as aliens, in my books and in my unpublished journals, but I
think this entry pretty much says it all. In my opinion, this was
not a dream any more than my alien experiences are dreams. I cannot
emphasize enough, the fact that my dreams do not feel like these encounters.
If I had to narrow it down to three choices I would say that this
was:
(1) An alien psychological test for manipulation purposes; (2) A
VRS, virtual reality scenario by agents of mind control; (3) An alien
vision of an event that might occur in the future.
If other researchers thought my alien experiences were
merely dreams, Budd Hopkins would not have written his
Introduction for The Alien Jigsaw, and I would not
have received the types of endorsements that I have for my
work. I am striving to understand what these memories can
possibly represent. Understanding them may mean the
difference between finding the truth about alien abductions
and perpetuating a myth.
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I will continue to illustrate this aspect of the
abduction phenomenon with information from another abductee
in Part Six of Project
Open Mind, titled About Lisa.
Preamble |
Introduction |
Part One | Part Two
| Part Three | Part Four
| Part Five | Part Six
| Part Seven | Part
Eight | Part Nine |
Part Ten
by Katharina Wilson ©1996
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